♡ professionally diagnosed with ASD (autism spectrum disorder) (but to keep it simple i use the label “autistic” cause im comfortable with that), depression, anxiety, ADHD combined type, and a mood disorder not otherwise specified ♡

♡ if i ever do something socially incorrect, please call me out!! i really want to make other people happy, and want to improve my social skills and your experience with me!! tyty ♡

♡ i love to sing but im super shy and self conscious when it comes to singing in front of others ♡

♡ i have trouble advocating for myself and saying what i need, so sometimes i just say that i have to go or ill be right back when i need to take a break, or if im uncomfy, i struggle with voicing it, so i stay quiet out of instinct. in the moment, my brain relies on my instincts alone to help me, instead of processing it and reasoning, due to the fact that my brain literally works slower than others. when something happens, i need time to process it before i can act reasonably. things that help me are: drawing, talking it out, taking a break to listen to music or something, and others. if i snap at you or ignore you or something, i want to apologize beforehand, as its just something i do sometimes, and im trying to work on it ♡

♡ sometimes i struggle to focus/pay attention, and sometimes i struggle with remembering the social rules. sometimes i may interrupt, space out, take a long time to respond, and more, but those are normal for me to do ♡

♡ i have a bad habit of correcting people and basically being a human autocorrect and im sorry if it bugs you!! ♡

♡ i like to keep my hands busy so if im playing games on call n stuff its not cause youre boring or anything, its just that i need to keep my hands busy or ill go nuts!! ♡

♡ pretty sure i have alexithymia lmao ♡

♡ kuroshitsuji (black butler) but like ONLY the reapers ♡

♡ bnha ♡

♡ cookie run ♡

♡ plants ♡

♡ pokemon ♡

♡ splatoon ♡

♡ the legend of zelda ♡

♡ pop team epic ♡

♡ ghost adventures ♡

♡ mlp ♡

♡ bee and puppycat ♡

♡ minecraft ♡

♡ vocaloid ♡

♡ hollow knight ♡

♡ undertale ♡

♡ deltarune ♡

♡ animal crossing ♡

♡ sky: children of the light ♡

♡ ena (joel g) ♡

♡ blues clues ♡

♡ vtubers (specifically nijisanji en but i love other vtubers too)♡

♡ bluey ♡

♡ left 4 dead (video game series) ♡

♡ genshin impact ♡

♡ youre lgbtq+phobic (i.e. homo/lesbipobic, biphobic, transphobic, aphobic, etc.), racist, antisemitic, ableist, zionist, etc. (tl;dr: a bigot of any kind) ♡

♡ youre a nazi or part of/support some other hate group (i.e. autism $peaks, isis, israel, etc.) ♡

♡ youre a terf/twerf, truscum, radfem, or support “drop the t” ♡

♡ you dont think transphobia, biphobia, etc. are real, think that bi people are “basically straight,” think that ace spectrum people dont belong in lgbtq+ spaces/“arent lgbtq+”/“dont count,” etc. ♡

♡ you support pedophilia, incest, beastiality, are a map (read: pedo) ally, basically a nasty person ♡

♡ you support or enjoy: futa content, child porn (cp) (FICTIONAL OR OTHERWISE), loli / shota, beastiality (uncensored for clarity) ♡

♡ youre hatefollowing ♡

♡ you make "trap", "triggered", "cancer", rape, or other jokes about very serious tragedies like school shootings, 9/11, etc. (poorly done dark humor in general is a "no thanks" from me) (uncensored for clarity) ♡

♡ you support my abusers ♡

♡ you believe my trauma isnt real (i.e. im "making it up", i "deserved it", i "remember it wrong", i "asked for it", etc.), my trauma/triggers are "stupid" or "invalid" and i just need to "get over it" or "suck it up", etc. ♡

♡ you believe kin is "stupid" ♡

♡ you like/support: shadman, pewdiepie, onision, dahvie vanity, antoons, shane dawson, vivziepop, elliot gindi, any other creators like them (names uncensored for clarity) ♡

♡ racism, antisemitism, ableism, lgbtq+phobia (INCLUDING APHOBIA), zionism, etc. ♡

♡ propaganda/praise/justification/etc. of hate groups (i.e. autism $peaks, isis, israel, etc.), or of hateful things in general ♡

♡ any form of praise/justification/dismissal of abuse ♡

♡ guilt trips ♡

♡ bad jokes about suicide, anything on the autism spectrum, bullying, harassment, etc. ♡

♡ rape ♡

♡ loud noises (especially without warning) ♡

♡ tumblr user @/baconsoda (twitter user @/papimeatman, discord user meatman#8059)♡

♡ the name “hayden” ♡

♡ pedophilia ♡

♡ death of any kind ♡

♡ self harm ♡

♡ "triggered" or "cancer" jokes ♡

♡ (poorly done) dark humor in general ♡

♡ condescending speech, treating me like im stupid ♡

♡ constant judgement/pointing out of my mistakes and flaws (once in awhile is understandable, and i appreciate it, but just hearing nothing but my flaws and mistakes constantly is very draining and upsetting, and can trigger memories of abuse. this is especially true when it comes to math or academics in general, as it can trigger memories of abuse, or panic attacks/mental breakdowns) ♡

♡ being told that my abusers were right about me/what they did to me was justified/i deserved it, or just support of my abusers in general (yes, this has happened before) ♡

♡ having my trauma be diminished or downplayed as me just "overreacting", "overemphasizing", "being overdramatic", "remembering it wrong", etc. (yes, this has happened before (countless times in fact)) ♡

♡ being made fun of for my trauma and/or my triggers (yes, this has happened before) ♡

♡ bugs (butterflies, ladybugs and moths are a "yes please" (unless close up), any other bug + close ups are an "ask first" (depends on the bug), wasps/hornets/other variations and spiders are a "please dont") ♡

♡ the game "boyfriend to death" ♡

♡ blaming me for things that i didnt do or for things that arent my fault (i.e. "class is starting late and its all hannahs fault" or smth like that, if its genuinely my fault ill try my best to fix it but if youre just putting the blame on me for the sake of directing your anger at me and taking it out on me or smth thats a yikes from me) (yes this has happened to me before) ♡

♡ threats of violence towards me of any kind (unless i know ur joking) (i.e. "while you were stretching i wanted to throw my expensive airpods at your throat cause that was a perfect opening but i didnt cause my airpods are expensive" or "if need be id throw you at the door to defend myself" or smth) (yes this has happened to me multiple times) ♡

♡ just like. taking your anger out on me and making it my fault youre angry (example: you had a bad day, you get mad at me for 1 mistake or smth and take out all that anger from your bad day on me) (yes this has happened to me multiple times) ♡

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