🎀 professionally diagnosed with ASD (autism spectrum disorder) (but to keep it simple i use the label “autistic” cause im comfortable with that), ADHD combined type, depression, and anxiety 🎀

🎀 if i ever do something socially incorrect, please call me out!! i really want to make other people happy, and want to improve my social skills and your experience with me!! tyty 🎀

🎀 pretty sure i have alexithymia (i struggle to understand what im feeling - doesnt mean i dont feel things, i just dont know wtf is goin on in there...often) 🎀

🎀 i forget to respond to messages a lot so i apologize in advance for that too - i promise its nothing personal, i dont do it on purpose 🎀

🎀 i love to sing but im super shy and self conscious when it comes to singing in front of others. i want to be confident enough to do so someday 🎀

🎀 i have trouble advocating for myself and saying what i need, and im very conflict avoidant. i often stay quiet out of instinct or just flee when im having a hard time. in the moment, my brain relies on my instincts alone to help me, instead of processing it and reasoning. when something happens, i need time to process it before i can act reasonably. if i snap at you or ignore you or something, i want to apologize beforehand, as its just something i do sometimes, and im trying to work on it 🎀

🎀 my brain loves to gaslight and doubt itself often - thanks special education! appreciate it (sarcasm). this is also partly why i struggle with self-advocacy, being proactive, doing things in the moment, making decisions, etc. because my brain says "are you sure though?" because special education said i have never once been right about anything in my entire life and drilled that into my brain among many other things <3 🎀

🎀 sometimes i struggle to focus/pay attention, and sometimes i struggle with remembering the social rules. sometimes i may interrupt, space out, take a long time to respond, and more. i apologize in advance 🎀

🎀 genshin impact 🎀

🎀 honkai star rail 🎀

🎀 left 4 dead (video game series) 🎀

🎀 vtubers 🎀

🎀 mlp 🎀

🎀 vocaloid 🎀

🎀 ena (joel g) 🎀

🎀 blues clues 🎀

🎀 bluey 🎀

🎀 minecraft 🎀

🎀 hollow knight and hollow knight: silksong 🎀

🎀 undertale and deltarune 🎀

🎀 black butler (but like ONLY the reapers) 🎀

🎀 my hero academia 🎀

🎀 cookie run 🎀

🎀 pokemon 🎀

🎀 splatoon 🎀

🎀 the legend of zelda 🎀

🎀 pop team epic 🎀

🎀 ghost adventures 🎀

🎀 bee and puppycat 🎀

🎀 animal crossing 🎀

🎀 sky: children of the light 🎀

🎀 bigots of any kind (lgbtq+phobes (homo/lesbiphobes, transphobes, terfs/twerfs (trans (women) exclusionary radical feminists), aphobes, etc.), racists, antisemites, ableists, zionists, nazis, etc.) 🎀

🎀 believe that transphobia, biphobia, etc. arent real, think that bi people are "basically straight," think that aroace spectrum people dont belong in lgbtq+ spaces/"dont count," etc. 🎀

🎀 you like, are part of, support, or are allies towards: hate groups (nazis, autism speaks, israel, maga, etc.), pedophilia, m.a.ps (aka pedos), incest, beastiality, animal abuse, child porn (cp, fictional or otherwise), loli/shota, etc. 🎀

🎀 youre hatefollowing 🎀

🎀 you make "trap," "triggered," "cancer," rape, or other jokes about very serious tragedies like school shootings, 9/11, etc. (poorly done dark humor in general is a "no thanks" from me) (uncensored for clarity) 🎀

🎀 you use slurs you cannot reclaim, and/or use slurs as slurs (derogatory, insulting, hateful) regardless of whether you can reclaim it 🎀

🎀 you believe my trauma isnt real (i.e. im "making it up", i "deserved it", i "remember it wrong", i "asked for it", etc.), my trauma/triggers are "stupid" or "invalid" and i just need to "get over it" or "suck it up," etc. 🎀

🎀 you believe kin is "stupid" 🎀

🎀 you support or are an explicit/blatant apologist (i.e., "they can do no wrong") for: shadman, pewdiepie, onision, dahvie vanity, antoons, shane dawson, vivziepop, elliot gindi, donald trump, charlie kirk, jk rowling, any other creators or people like them (names uncensored for clarity) 🎀

🎀 racism, antisemitism, ableism, lgbtq+phobia (including aphobia), zionism, etc. 🎀

🎀 propaganda, praise, justification, etc. of hate groups (i.e. autism speaks, israel and the idf, nazis, MAGA, etc.), or of hateful things in general 🎀

🎀 any form of praise, justification, dismissal of abuse 🎀

🎀 guilt trips 🎀

🎀 rape 🎀

🎀 loud noises (especially without warning) 🎀

🎀 pedophilia 🎀

🎀 self-harm 🎀

🎀 (poorly done) dark humor 🎀

🎀 bad, distasteful, and hateful jokes about suicide, anything on the autism spectrum, bullying, harassment, etc. 🎀

🎀 using slurs you cannot reclaim, and/or use of slurs as slurs (derogatory, insulting, hateful) regardless of whether you can reclaim them (this includes calling me slurs unless previously discussed with me for the occasional lighthearted joke between friends) 🎀

🎀 condescending speech, treating me like im stupid 🎀

🎀 constant judgement/pointing out of my mistakes and flaws. once in a while is understandable, and i appreciate it, but just hearing nothing but my flaws and mistakes constantly is very draining and upsetting, and can trigger painful memories 🎀

🎀 being told that my abusers were right about me, what they did to me was justified, i deserved it, or just support of my abusers in general 🎀

🎀 having my trauma be diminished or downplayed as me just "overreacting," "being overdramatic," "remembering it wrong," etc. 🎀

🎀 being made fun of for my trauma and/or my triggers 🎀

🎀 bugs (butterflies, ladybugs and moths are a "yes please" (unless close up), any other bug + close ups are an "ask first" (depends on the bug)) 🎀

🎀 being ignored or interrupted repeatedly (once in a while is forgivable and wont upset me deeply, but the more that its a blatant, repeated pattern of behavior, the more quickly ill shut down and get upset and hurt when it happens, even if theres a valid reason behind it (i.e., adhd, being generally distracted, etc.)) 🎀

🎀 the game "boyfriend to death" 🎀

🎀 blaming me for things that i didnt do or for things that arent my fault (if its genuinely my fault ill try my best to fix it but if youre just putting the blame on me for the sake of directing your anger at me and taking it out on me or something thats a yikes from me) 🎀

🎀 threats of violence towards me of any kind (unless i know ur joking) 🎀

🎀 just like. taking your anger out on me and making it my fault youre angry, using me as a punching bag in any form 🎀

🎀 the creators mentioned in my do not interact 🎀